I booked an escort for sunday, first experience ever, anxious, need V****a?

Dude this is just an all around terrible idea.

 

given you havent come back on, hoping you didnt do this.
as others have said, this wont help you
you need to deal with some more underlying issues if this is how you are thinking. stopping fapping and porn, isnt the answer, its part of the solution but it doesnt resolve your needs and wants, appreciate you are frustrated but this will lead you down a worse path

you likely need some work on confidence, you need maybe some thinking on root cause of the porn, and you need to really appreciate that it will take time, and things will work out

if you can stop pmo for 30 days, you can make more and better changes

good luck

 

I’m really worried about him tbh. Hoping he didn’t go through with this

 

LeBlanc, if you take notice of one reply to this I suggest it be the one above. Well done for such an informed and balanced bit of feedback Merovingian.

Reading the replies to this must be tough for you man, particularly seeing as it seems you have a lot of hopes set for this experience. Just remember you're not an idiot and you're not the first man who has had these ideas - you're OK. You're doing your best to deal with your suffering as well as you know how to do. Keep that in mind when you consider whether or not this is the right thing to do for you and the woman you plan on doing it with.

 

Don´t do it dude!! You are substituting your addiction with a possibly even worse habit.

 

Lot's of good advice on this forum. Sex should not be a goal for you... that's the addict talking. Meaningful connection should be. In addition to the NoFap challenges, I would highly recommend you visit a therapist who deals with sexual addiction issues. Not only do you need a reset, but you also need to learn the healthy sexual views that replace the unhealthy ones.

If a therapist is out of the question... I highly recommend the book "The Sexual Healing Journey" by Wendy Maltz. The book is aimed towards survivors of sexual abuse, which means it also applies to people who became addicted to porn in their adolescence. It talks about how to replace unhealthy views on sex with healthy views on sex.

 

It might not be the best idea but if you still want to do it, my piece of advice is do not focus on her pleasure but on your own - particularly if you will be stressed and nervous and on top of then worrying about giving hard cock and good fuck to girls that is just pure recipe for soft cock.
Trust me I had exactly same experience about 10 years ago, I planned to do the same things as you and although the girl looked stunning for above reason I was unable to get hard at all.

 

was there any update here?
original poster?