I CAN DO IT

Hi guys, I have been mastrubating since I was 13, every single day, multiple times a day. I have tried Nofap couple times since than but it always lasted less than a week. When I coulnd't hold my urge anymore, I was very disappointed in myself, because in those times I wasn't even horny. It was like: "I HAVE TO DO IT". That mindset frustrates me. Before, when I was younger, like 14-16 I could have sex with girls and mastrubate couple times a day and it was not a problem. But since I was 19 (so 2 years from this day), I could't enjoy in sex that much, it just is not that fun anymore to me because of fucking porn, because I can watch whatever I want, when I want and how I want!!! I have a girlfriend and I really love her but when we have sex I think about it like: "we have to do it" and not like: "I want to do it!!". Nothing can excite me anymore like porn can. When I am happy, I watch porn. When I am sad, I watch porn. And it is like that in circle over and over and over again. I said to myself like 1000 times after fap: "this was your last one, now you are going to do something about YOURSELF", but it last for maybe 3-4 hours and again I disappoint myself. I have never thought I would write anything here but I think NOW is fucking final time to do something about myself and to release a guy who is trapped inside me!!!

 

It will be hell my brother, but as you said we can do it!! and we will do it, let's find our true self.