I Can't Control it. I'm trying and trying and have been trying for 8 years now, but I always allow my self to fall into the addiction. Its has taken over my life, and I want it back. It's not the enjoyment of the porn; it's the split-second of climax the heavy guilt. I can convince myself it's ok its reasonable but its not. I can declare, "I NEED TO STOP!" "THIS IS NOT WHO I AM" but as soon as I get a moment I go for it without remorse until it's over. It's like a drug it's addictive, it takes over your life and has substantial side effects, I want this to end, but within a day or two I will get a feeling, and I'm back to zero. I scare my self with this addiction and the guilt anxiety that it has it taking a toll on my health and my quality of life. I want this to end but I can't get my head to agree. PMO addiction is that never wish upon anyone but I hope I can try again and hope to break this addiction that is a curse.