I can't get back on after a 180-day streak.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by GodVegeta123, Aug 1, 2020.

  1. GodVegeta123

    GodVegeta123 New Fapstronaut

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    Guys I need help
    It all started in summer last year where i discovered nofap,i Was very Motivated and my streaks increased from 2,7,40 and eventually to an 180 day streak.
    in Quarantine i was exercising daily for 3-5 hours,watched helpful channels on Youtube like tmf ,ate healthy and took Cold showers everyday. But then it started.after a long time of not getting any urges i thought i have beaten the addiction,but it came back and it came back hard.
    I couldn't sleep that night because of it and in my bed i fought it in my mind.(My Motivation always was vegeta and that Moment felt like when he became majin vegeta and Tried to fight his mind)
    I couldn't do it Anymore and relapsed because my Brain wanted to see what i missed in this time I relapsed 3 times that night and didn't sleep at all.
    Since then my best streak Was 14,and I can't go past 2 days sometimes. That 14 day streak Was after a book by david goggins and it helped me become my true Self again. But I just can't do it Anymore and Im getting realy depressed because i couldn't Show my New self after quarantine who wouldve been on a 200+ streak.
    I feel like i can't commit like i did before,its like Nothing is fueling me anymore,its like i Used every Motivation for me...
    What do you guys think?
     
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  2. BigBadWolf_27

    BigBadWolf_27 Fapstronaut

    Hello.
    I feel you man. I also relapsed badly after a long streak because of lockdown. It's easy to lose motivation in that time. You can think - "I will stay home anyway, nobody will see that I'm weaker version of myself, that one time will not hurt". And when you hit the bottom it's getting harder and harder to reach 30 days again, 2 weeks again, and later even a week without using PMO. But it's all in your mind. You know that you abstain for such a long time, you did it in the past, you can visualize that feeling, feeling of motivation, mental clarity and power. Let it be your fuel. Without proper mindset it's pointless, conquering desires it's probably one of the hardest quests for modern man to mantain. But it's so worth it. You said that you keep in mind that fictional character, it's a great thing to keep going. Cold showers, excersises - that's some good habits on NoFap. Dedicate yourself, go all in, take a challenge, you can do this man, you're far better than that.
    Stay strong.
     
    Last edited: Aug 2, 2020
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  3. GodVegeta123

    GodVegeta123 New Fapstronaut

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    Thank you man,great comment,it's all in the mind,time for it to get finally used to not being that weak guy anymore.
     
  4. Atlas Gherbe

    Atlas Gherbe Fapstronaut

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    Your streak is just a quantity, an illusion. Isn't 200 days that let you recover, but the fact you had the will power of stay without porn, if you understand what i mean. The streak is just a way for feed the ego. " Watch me i am at day 20;30;40" you instead are just a porn fapper retard, watch me!"

    Count the days is ok, but don't be enslaved by the illusion. "I will not reach that streak again" is a dangerous thought that could direct you again im the web of the spider, you are not relegated to day 0, isn't like before you have actually experienced the abstinence to 0-200.
     
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  5. GodVegeta123

    GodVegeta123 New Fapstronaut

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    Great thought.
     
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