RetroRasta
Fapstronaut
Its amazing how I've been in the dark for so long, how the porn industry has kept the truth hidden for so long. My Journey of self gratification began about when I was 10 years old, Now I'm 24.
For 14 years, I answered the call of dopamine cravings and gave into my primal urges, as a child my innocent was shattered through corporate greed and my lust for cheap thrills. 3 weeks ago while jacking off as usual, I came to a realization, I decided for some reason to become more spiritual and sacrifice my addiction, in hopes of pursuing a more pious life.
This unexpected journey has been more difficult than I anticipated, with me nearly succumbing to my lust several times but somehow always managing to resisting myself in the last few moments, with problems arising such as a brain fog, weak working memory, high irritability, slight depression and stress. This unnatural cycle of self gratification had finally revealed the magnitude of the damage that had been done to me but alas it took too long for me to find out.
I came here in hopes of finding a community to support me when I feel that I will cave in to my urges and to provide a warning to those who consider straying, porn is the most vile of fiends and the porn industry is a powerful force to be reckoned with, so powerful in fact that It took me 14 years to discover the true effects of Porn withdrawal.
Rather than dwell in the past, lets look forward to the future and acknowledge that if we manage to overcome this then we will truly have fortified our will power to measurable levels.
For 14 years, I answered the call of dopamine cravings and gave into my primal urges, as a child my innocent was shattered through corporate greed and my lust for cheap thrills. 3 weeks ago while jacking off as usual, I came to a realization, I decided for some reason to become more spiritual and sacrifice my addiction, in hopes of pursuing a more pious life.
This unexpected journey has been more difficult than I anticipated, with me nearly succumbing to my lust several times but somehow always managing to resisting myself in the last few moments, with problems arising such as a brain fog, weak working memory, high irritability, slight depression and stress. This unnatural cycle of self gratification had finally revealed the magnitude of the damage that had been done to me but alas it took too long for me to find out.
I came here in hopes of finding a community to support me when I feel that I will cave in to my urges and to provide a warning to those who consider straying, porn is the most vile of fiends and the porn industry is a powerful force to be reckoned with, so powerful in fact that It took me 14 years to discover the true effects of Porn withdrawal.
Rather than dwell in the past, lets look forward to the future and acknowledge that if we manage to overcome this then we will truly have fortified our will power to measurable levels.
