It happens again and again and again. I convince myself PMO is bad, I convince myself I'm a moral person and time and time again I choose for sexting and porn again. I know it's bad, I know I shouldn't do it but the brain has the ability to rationalise itself into anything it wants. I deleted all social media, I'm really gonna go within this time. My dick is broken, I have no sex drive, I can only get erect to a semi, worn down ghost of its former self. And yet I keep doing it, I keep fucking doing it. It's enough, it's gotta be enough. I just get so fatigued, so incredibly lonely and desperate when I do nofap I end up reaching for things. I end up reaching for apps with people to talk to and it always ends this way. It always does. I'm ruined man.