Hello, I am 19 years old. Since I am 14 I watched pornography and also masturbated. I was addicted but also started to fight against it because after it I really felt guilty, I felt empty and shameful. I could withstand for a few days, then a few weeks and also maybe two months. When I was 16 I tried to stop. Three years I neither masturbated nor did I watch any pornography. I developed strong values and an attitude against it. I had many urges but I was strong enough to withstand. In effect I focused more on school, my religion and family and became more succesful. Now I am 19 years old. Yesterday at evening I had a feeling that was really strong. I almost decided to do it again but I could withstand and I went to sleep. But today morning the same strong feeling the urge came back. It led my to do it again, the first time after three years. I feel really, really guilty now. I feel that everyhting that I have fought for the recent years is gone and that I will fall again. I feel that I betrayed my religion, my family and myself. When I did it I took all religios pieces out of my room. I felt that I had no control over myself. Now I really don't know what I can do. I feel depressed. I would be really happy for advice. thanks.