I didn't give in but I feel guilty

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Exponential Power

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16 days PM free and 4 days since O with my wife. Feeling horny. I am bi and have always used gay porn infrequently but maintained my addiction by masturbating while looking in the mirror. Today I looked in the mirror and got aroused and semi-erect. I didn't touch myself but I feel guilty because I had decided to avoid mirrors since I think this is a P-sub for me. I'm glad I did not MO but I'm worried that the dopamine hit and acting in my old pattern has set me back.
 
Good recognition of slippery behaviour for you. For me, it is scanning in public, the linger look. I get back on the wagon. Good luck! :)
 
I think scanning is also a trigger for me. I was at the gym this morning and was noticing other guys. I wasn't aroused by it but it triggers my insecurities. I am 38 yrs old skinny and my hair is thinning. Seeing muscular young guys with thick hair is tough. I think I looked in the mirror because I wanted to see myself as masculine and attractive.
 
Hey exponential power, I totally feel the same way. I'm a younger guy, though, but I get insecure when I see other more muscular, handsomer guys in the gym. I'm trying this thing where I get in and out of the gym in an hour and 15 minutes, and I time myself, so I'm so busy that I don't have time to look around. Been working well so far.
 
Hello exponential power, first off you don't need to feel guilty. You simple found a trigger. This can be tricky to navigate around but you made the right choice by actively avoiding mirrors. By knowing triggers you can get a better control over your desires. Even though this may seem hard and you avoid normal things for you over time it will pay off. Have you discussed with your wife about you being Bi? If willing she may be able to help with those feelings.
 
I say history because I haven't been with a man in 12 years. I met my wife 7 years ago. I didn't choose to be bisexual but I choose to be monogamous and I choose to give up PM.
 
I don't mean this as offensive at all. But if you look for gay porn maybe and again not trying to hurt your progress at all with what I am suggesting she could incorporate some elements of that into your sex life
 
Exponential Power said:
16 days PM free and 4 days since O with my wife. Feeling horny. I am bi and have always used gay porn infrequently but maintained my addiction by masturbating while looking in the mirror. Today I looked in the mirror and got aroused and semi-erect. I didn't touch myself but I feel guilty because I had decided to avoid mirrors since I think this is a P-sub for me. I'm glad I did not MO but I'm worried that the dopamine hit and acting in my old pattern has set me back.
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Well done!
 
Devorian said:
I don't mean this as offensive at all. But if you look for gay porn maybe and again not trying to hurt your progress at all with what I am suggesting she could incorporate some elements of that into your sex life
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This is not the issue. My wife is supportive and willing to please me. I used gay porn because I'm aroused by looking at attractive men.
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What do you mean history
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My wife knows about my past sexual experiences with men. I use the word history because I don't have any need or desire for sex with men.
 
Exponential Power said:
This is not the issue. My wife is supportive and willing to please me. I used gay porn because I'm aroused by looking at attractive men.
My wife knows about my past sexual experiences with men. I use the word history because I don't have any need or desire for sex with men.
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So that mean your straight again
 
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