I've been feeling like shit for these past few weeks, so I just decided to come here and ask for some advice. For the past few months I've been browsing some incel forums everyday. I find that I am able to relate to the people there. That being because we are all virgins who share a variety of issues. However, I find that my mental state has been deteriorating more and more. I feel like shit and have low energy and motivation I've always had low confidence and self esteem, but now any remnant of that has been eviscerated and replaced with pure self-hatred. I am able to pick apart a variety of flaws with my own appearance and it just makes me depressed and frustrated. As a matter of fact, every time I see a person I begin picking apart flaws. Not only that, but I am at a point where I dislike women to say the least. I'm sure they also hate me as well. Anyways, I don't trust a women's word at all. They'll say one thing but do something else entirely. I don't even think the average women is capable of love. I have a variety of other 'negative' opinions about women but I"d rather say anymore. I think my family is starting to notice this change but I try to hide it to my best ability. Ultimately, I'd rather not think like this but I don't know if it's possible to change.