I don't feel like deserving to celebrate my birthday.

Well, you have your ideal then. Become something worth celebrating in your own eyes.

 

That doesn't sound very unrepentant. If you dont want to do it then don't but cancelling your birthday isn't going to improves your school situation.

 

From what I've read, you have all the reason to celebrate. You are ridiculously young, with the whole world at your feet. You are mature enough to deal with this particularly nasty problem well before it ruins your chance of having fruitful relationships and a rewarding career. I know a guy twice your age, completely immersed in PMO. His children from his three ex wives doesn't visit him, unlike you he has no education and everything he can think of when his paycheck comes is to pay for porn, cigarettes and gambling. So here's to you! Happy birthday, friend!

 

i can understand how it feels
recently i too turned 24.....

 

I too recently turned 24 and I can relate to you, UAH.

Birthdays just happen.. You eat a piece of cake and celebrate another day of existence. It's sort of like a new year celebration..or a good luck thing for your new year of life like "good luck on this year of being 24" type thing.
People (your family and friends) just wanna give you some loving on your birthday, make you do a little laph or smile, and doesn't matter if you deserve it or not, and thats sort of what love is.
You can make your year of life being 24 the same as the one you had in your year of life 23 or not, it's in your hands, right? It's sort of like a fresh start if you want. Then after changing somethings and doin your best (maybe at your 25) you can say "when I was 24 I started to really take things seriously and get my life back on track"
Birthdays don't wait until we deserve them and neither does love.

 

Don't know but now I am getting scared that I am turning old
And the fact that I am still the same..... which I was 6-7 years back.....is quite scary....
But yes you are right......we should participate in celebration

 

25 is supposed to be when you’re at your prime so now is the best time to improve. Make the most of the rest of your 20s!

 

A birthday celebration is not a celebration of what you think of yourself-- it's about how much others appreciate you. Nobody is forced to celebrate your birthday, they do it because of how much you mean to them. It's about how much you have blessed the lives of other people and they are appreciative about it. Be thankful that other people care about you enough to even want to celebrate your birthday.

I don't deserve a thing and I'm older than you, but be glad that others care about you. You can still believe that you don't deserve it, but that's not what a birthday is about-- it's about how much others love you. Not everyone has friends or family members that care about them.

 

I feel these exact same ways and I'm turning 21 (the last BIG one for a while!) in a week... I've never really had true friends, and my family has been pretty crappy, so my feelings of love aren't quite up-to-par. Like @drac16 said, I'm trying to be thankful for people caring enough to want to celebrate me, even though it's hard to accept.