I dont feel like like living anymore (Depression)

Discussion in 'Porn-Induced Sexual Dysfunctions' started by Recoveryattempt, Aug 23, 2017.

  1. Recoveryattempt

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    My penis is numb, rubbery, lifeless, and tingling sometimes, and it shows little to no resistance. But i can still get hard erections. My penis has a lost of sensitivity and the foreskin is dry, i fap through my clothes, lying down sideways. And this issue happened after i orgasmed, all of this happened in that one way. But i dont know if this happened to anyone else because nobody talks about it and i dont really see success stories regarding this subject. But my penis still has all its issues and this has been going on since July 2016, my longest streak was in August-September for 49 days then i relapsed. I honestly cant take this anymore and i just want to die. Its so depressing
     
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  2. r_ryan85

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    Have you sought help from a doctor or a specialist? They might have an answer for you. It doesn't say anywhere on your post if you have done so. In times like this it is so important to tell people you love, like your parents. It is difficult and embarrassing, but fighting all this by yourself is worse. Especially at your age.
     
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    After some thinking, ill give nofap an actual try, ill give it 2 years. After that, time for a doctor. If i get no improvements after a few months, i will see a doctor. Im never going back to porn thats for sure.

    And yes ive seen a doctor 3 days after this happened. She said she didnt see any physical anomalies but it was a lot more flaccid than usual.
     
  4. r_ryan85

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    What about a specialist? They know far more than a regular doctor. There are so many physical tests for this problem which you can find on Wikipedia.

    I also have some book recommendations for you which I will post tonight to help with your mind.

    In the meanwhile, look up a guy called Nick Vujicic. See his condition, and then see his wife. There is always hope.

     
  5. Recoveryattempt

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    After i got a ringed pressure mark on my penis from wearing tight underwear and my penis got pushed and now the foreskin doesnt totally cover the glans. I still get erections and urinate properly but its uncomfortable for part of my glans to be rubbing on my underwear
     
  6. Happy Man

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    We are all in the same position. My penis is dead too. You have to stay strong. Read this: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/...can-you-help-why-am-i-back-to-flatline.10271/

    I want you to read this over and over again. Look at this guys struggle and learn from it. If you are PMO free in the next 2 years. You will only be 16. By then if you don't PMO, you WILL HAVE YOU LIFE AHEAD OF YOU. You will have strong hard erections. 2 years later, you will be enjoying regular sex.

    Stay on this forum, write a journal, read as much and learn as much about nofap as you can. This will help you over come your addiction.

    Do not try, make it a must. Trying is no good. I MUST do this!!! Give it all you got!! Don't do this half heartly.
     
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  7. Recoveryattempt

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    Thank you. But so many thoughts flood my brain about the future and if i always have to live like this, i cant even walk properly or sleep properly with a dead penis on my leg. And what if i cant have children.
     
  8. UpendiT

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    It sounds like you have general anxiety disorder. That's likely why you M'ed so much in the first place... I've had GAD since birth and recently found out it can be caused by a magnesium deficiency.

    In conjunction with nofap, after a month of taking 200mg of magnesium per meal, my panic attacks have mostly gone away, and my penis, which has been dead since 14 (I'm 26), is starting to get feeling back... I couldn't feel hot/cold, scratches or anything.
     
  9. Recoveryattempt

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    Oh my god, since 14! What was your longest streak
     
  10. UpendiT

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    50 days. Like a year straight without P, though.

    I got addicted to MO at 5 and messed up my pelvic floor and... brain. I only had normal function for like a week in my life at age 14 :(. Then it died completely... numbness haha. What the hell. I didn't even find out I had a problem until years later. Being functional was such a short part of my life that I thought normality wasn't normal. Didn't have internet and was completely sheltered from sex. That led me down a path of P (had some function with P for a year maybe, didn't feel very good, though) and video game addiction.

    You probably should tell your parents. I didn't... and it has sort of driven me insane. I became suicidal as well :(. Fear of not getting better has been the cause of every single relapse on nofap. It's not the pleasure, it never really felt good. It's the thought of not getting better and having to live out my life alone. It freaking sucks.

    But I've been more hopeful recently because I've had days where sensitivity and function have returned to a degree and I can even feel warmth during urination. I don't even remember the last time I felt that, if ever. I've been taking 200mg of magnesium per meal for a month along with nofap and it definitely helped me.
     
  11. Recoveryattempt

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    You said you messed up your pelvic floor? Can you explain that to me and how did it fix? Also, what was the magnesium for?
     
  12. UpendiT

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    While MOing during pre-pubescence, I always clenched the muscle one uses to stop urinating. This, usually accompanied with an anxiety disorder, can cause the muscles to get trapped in that clenched state, putting constant pressure on the pudendal and pelvic nerves.

    Due to modern agricultural practices, magnesium is a mineral most people are at least slightly deficient in now. Here's a site explaining what it can cause: http://drsircus.com/magnesium/magnesium-deficiency-symptoms-diagnosis/

    To fix these problems, the best thing to do is take magnesium supplements and not PMO.
     
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  13. your dick is perfectly normal. sexual drive comes from your head so repair your brain & be happy
     
  14. Recoveryattempt

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    So the magnesium helped the clenched state?
     
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    So the magnesium helped the clenched state???
     
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