I started 2018 with a NoFap resolution did a streak of 34 days then relapsed and then fell into the spiral of getting into binging even 3 or 4 times a day than I would feel pathetic again do a 7 or 8 day streak and again relapse. I am jobless at 27 sitting at home and preparing for competitive exams I have to study all day at desk in front of computer. When things don't move quickly or when I don't get things done I fall into PMO. and after doing PMO I loose motivation to do things which leads to further PMO. I tried I go 8-10 days and fall again I am fed up of this. I try to be optimistic but I am feeling powerless after this relapse. This post is a cry for help or rant I don't know or may be both. I pray to God I promised him I will get rid of this habit but I am relapsing at frequent intervals and I am not moving ahead in life. I feel like shit now.