I don't know what else to do

Dona give up bro .

 

Fighting addiction isn't easy. It's as difficult as writing with the weak hand. Like a right-handed person can't write with left hand in one day, not even in one month. Likewise fighting addiction is a lot of effort. External factors come into play. Just as learning a language takes time, it's same for addiction or any other hobby.


This above link gave me some advice.


Is there any place where you can make real life friends or even friends on watsapp? There is a group on Telegram, that's like watsapp only more anonymous.

 

I can write with my left hand

 

You have to hate this addiction as if you want to stab a knife through it 300 time under a minute saying fuck you and really angry. And if your this angry at it when you get urges i gerantee you wont give in. You have to hate it

 

A quote that comes to mind: "Don't CRY to GIVE UP...CRY to KEEP GOING"

If you are having such extreme issues, I would consider a therapist, or another real life person you can communicate with. Looking at porn 8-10 hours a day is it not going to be something you can easily get past, especially by yourself. You likely need to get out of your environment that you have created. Opening up to someone else will allow them to be objective about your situation.

The most important thing is to not give up. Its a long journey, and all of us get frustrated on this road.

 

I have listened to some of Tony's stuff. I dont know your financial situation, but perhaps you could try a 1-on-1/personal session with him?

 

A lot of actors or actress had mental illness, and the more you watch and imitate, the higher chance you get a mental illness like depression.
Walk away from sexual stuff like a pastor, Shall God Award you and improve your destiny! Don't get driven by your thoughts, but control them. You are the owner of your thoughts instead of the slave.
You are manipulated by your own thoughts, if thoughts never carry on in the life, they would be still thoughts, but once you follow them, they would become reality. Never follow your thoughts.

 

Sorry about my bad translation: I would correct it into: never follow your emotional thoughts that related to desire, but the ones from your clear minds.

 

One more thing, porn is not only affecting you, also your partner. And your brain is sicker than normal people. If you compare you and your parent. Whose mind is sicker? I guessed that you knew it. And you would probably relate this to watching porn, because your parents are not watching as much as you. So here you are.
Try to turn back to normal. Remember all your suffering, and what would be worse in the future if you don't quite:
· Porn-induced erectile dysfunction
· Inability to reach orgasm (anorgasmia) and/or decreased sensitivity in the penis
· Diminished libido with real-world partners but not with porn
· Real-life sexual indifference and/or aversion
· Devaluation of real-life partners
· Uncharacteristic fetishes
· Depression, anxiety, stress and social malfunctioning
· Reduced gray matter in the brain
· Memory, concentration and impulse-control problems
We must be FKing careful. Pron is a FKing rea, devil that Would beat us like a pig. There is no other way than Fighting back! WE DON'T HAVE CHOICE! WE DON'T HAVE CHOICE! WE DON'T HAVE CHOICE!

 

when is the longest time you have done without porn or masturbating? I would remember that I have tried so hard sometimes in my 18. I did ok, but I didn't realize the problem stop me doing it for years and years is my thoughts. I had bad bad thoughts about testing myself (tolerance, sex ability, or just random reason). I gave myself too much excuses.
I felt really guilty and bad after i failed. I couldn't image how many times. But you know what: this is the procedure that lead me to quite it for about 1 year and half (400-500 days) in my 20s. I failed again afterward, but I remember all the bad fortune i got, and bad fate i got, and all the pain and scars. it keeps me trying to stop. and I will fight it always. No matter I fail or No matter how long I quite or how bad I felt. I must keep tryings. Yeah, it takes times. You must remember all YOUR scars and Bad Past, if it's possible write them down and read it everyday.
One more thing, right now my record is about 60 days, I learnt a lesson:
the easiest time is first 30 days, but after 30 days. the thoughts of testing yourself start to come. I always failed here. This time I just totally "kill" all the thoughts (actually it's "kill"), not kill in real life, but kill in my mind. All the thoughts no matter good or bad, just kill (it's about 10 minutes). Then my mind is in a peace, all the fking desire or tricky sounds are gone ( tricky because these sounds look like from you, but after you kill them, they are laughing like a devil - this is not you. and you MUST keep killing any thoughts until the laughing is gone, so that you can turn into peace mood).
I had a girlfriend or fiancee, about to marriage, but at the end I dumped her. She watched so much porn and literally became crazy, she doesn't know who she is, she always hates others, and she told people taht she doesn't have friends. But she would never know, the cause masturbating made imbalance chemical in her brain. And she got depression and other mental illness. She even told me to cancel the wedding, but still keep the relationship (what she is talking about lol).
Anyway, try to make notes and failure is normal, but dont waste the chances.

 

One more thing if you have time, you can read a book by Wilson called: your brain on Porn.

 

You are not the only one here (I am here as well), and you discovered it early. So, this is something showed that the world still needs you and you are really important. You would be a great guy in the future. So trust in yourself, and take failure as lessons. Do not give in!
However, great people would receive greater challenges.Our path wouldn't be easy, but we have to overcome it, and We shall always take the challenges, because we will be greater after that. And I am grateful that something is challenging me and improving me, and I must take it on.