I dont know what to do anymore

Try to make strategies, write it how works(steps to follow) and what are the results.
Strategie A (Doesn't work)
Strategie B (More less)
Strategie C ( Works but it is difficult)

That's one way

 

You can do it.

Everyone is different, but for me the negative thoughts about myself were mostly important for getting me to take initial action (joining this site and finding an Accountability Partner for example). What some people call “rock bottom”. After that I was driven more by positive actions. Working out, looking better, making some important changes to my mindset and interactions with others, and getting the spark going again with my wife. All of that was motivating. Self-loathing was not as helpful. After all, PMO was one of my ways of coping with those bad feelings in the past. A vicious cycle…

Good luck, don’t give up now.

 

Dude, porn hijacks your brain, that's why you feel like you can't get out of this addiction.

Use this method. It works 100%.

Whenever you have strong urges, tell your seeking dopamine brain that greater pleasure is better than pleasure. What's better than pleasure? Greater pleasure. A strong urge comes? Think about how big your libido will be in 3 months. Just that, when an urge comes, you only have to think about how big your sexual energy was when you discovered porn. Wouldn't you want to experience such pleasure again? Then wait 3 months and then decide wether to release the sexual energy and enjoy maximum pleasure.
The thing is that when the 3 months come, you'll most likely have forgotten about porn altogether or even if you relapse, your 3 months progress are not gone so repeat all of that for 3 months again until eventually porn is out of your mind.

 

Get working on something you really want to achieve, do not think about something else. I am day 9 today and some wild womans made me horny yesterday and today, I got blue balls but I don't feel like going to p or m, it was always outside the question.