I don't know what to do,i can't have normal sex.

Well, when it comes to therapy, it is important to find the right specialist. To me it didn't work well. But you could try.
What nofap gave me is an understanding that I don’t want to be a slave and that I really like a cute, benevolent woman, not a ruling one. But I still never felt anything to a naked woman or man body what I could describe as sexual arousal. I also tried to watch porno, but every time I was very disgusted. Nevertheless, I must admit that I am not asexual as I thought, so I must try to get into vanilla somehow (but it's very hard). Believing that I am asexual with fetishes I tried to refuse every aspect of sexual arousal for a long time, but it is not the way. I'm a very emotional person which gets arousal from feelings, for example, helplessness (I was an 8-year-old kid when I felt orgasm, but I didn't touch myself, only tried to solve maths in class perfectly, what failed that day and made me feel frustration, anger and helplessness). I think this thing is some strange type of sex sublimation, I can't explain where it started for me, but it lies in my parents' relationship(they are divorced now). My subconscious thinks that a naked woman's body and doing something to it is very brutal, it tries to refuse the Dionysian element. I think I was a pretty delicate kid, so I tried to find my way to sink into femininity. I wanted to wear my mother's shoes when I was 2-3 y.o... Although I no longer feel the urge for that, I developed a fetish about 4-8 y.o. by fantasizing to be trampled by women with those boots. I think to me boots are the symbol of the Other(female). While I was a child, I didn't think about breasts or other parts of a woman's body.. I believe there is a way to appreciate the beauty of it (paintings, statues, sth filled with emotion). So switching porn into vanilla is not the way out at least for me
Sorry for the bad English.

 

I do know that continuing to pmo will make that worse. So I would definitely go the NF way.
I assume this is due to escalation in p intensity? There is a phenomenon where one builds up tolerance to light p such that they can only get aroused by super intense p, making real life interactions with women also bland. NF will definitely cure this.

If the problem persists and you want to get a therapist, make sure it's one that genuinely wants you to quit p because a lot of therapists encourage pmo and that obviously doesn't help.

 

It's never going to feel like mental damage from stopping masturbating. Like I say, you need to increase serotonin in the central nervous system.

https://www.wfsbp.org/fileadmin/user_upload/Treatment_Guidelines/Paraphilias_Guidelines.pdf

"A review of the studies showed effectiveness of different antidepressants in sexual abusers: fl uoxetine (Bianchi 1990; Kafka 1991, Kafka and Prentky 1992b; Lorefi ce 1991; Perilstein et al. 1991; Bradford and Gratzer 1995; Emmanuel et al. 1991); sertraline (Kafka 1994; Bradford et al. 1995); clomipramine (Kruesi et al. 1992; Ruby et al. 1993); fl uvoxamine (Zohar et al. 1994; Greenberg et al. 1996); paroxetine (Abouesh and Clayton 1999) and nefazodone (Coleman et al. 2000, retrospective study, 14 males with non paraphilic sexual compulsions). Kafka and Prentky (1992b) reported that fl uoxetine (20 – 60 mg/day) for 12 weeks reduced preferentially the frequency of paraphiliac behaviours in 20 male paraphilic subjects (exhibitionism, phone sex, sadism, fetishism, frotteurism) at week 4, and hypothesized that SSRIs may even facilitate normal sexual arousal. In the same way, physiological measures of sexual arousal (penile plethysmography) showed a decrease in paedophilic arousal (by 53%), and improved or maintained normal arousal after 12 weeks of sertraline treatment (Bradford 1999, 2001). Some authors have compared effectiveness of SSRIs to other treatments: a retrospective study, conducted by Greenberg et al. (1996), in 58 paraphil-iacs, 17 – 72 years of age (mean age: 36), compared the effectiveness of fl uvoxamine ( N16), fl uoxetine ( N17) and sertraline ( N25). Seventy-nine percent of subjects received concurrent psychotherapy. The major paraphilias were paedophilia (74%), exhibitionism (14%), sexual sadism (12%). Comor-bid disorders were borderline personality disorder (31%), depression (28%), alcohol dependence (17%). Results showed a signifi cant decrease in deviant fantasy intensity and frequency from weeks 4 to 8, and no further improvement at week 12."