Hello good reader who decided to read and thank you for that. Intro: Me: 27 years old, Heavy PMO addict since i was 13, living in my parents house and working on a job that wont motivate me and i hate it. Because of my PMO addiction, my teenage years were mostly very unhappy - no relationships not so many friends. I was awkward and target for easy bullying. My only interest was just working out in the gym and PMO and somehow get this shitty school over with. I was very social and happy before my PMO, which started when we moved out of neighbourhood into land to a private estate, where i had no one to play with - that got me going more into computer games and eventually PMO. I had crooked teeth and it made me very sad and embarrased of my self, and i seeked even more escape from PMO. I went on to work and live in some other towns for 2 years in my country but my PMO addiction threw me to my knees when i discovered i have ED with a girl and was watching some horrible porn shit. I decided to look into my problem and went to nofap and had some failures but approaching my 90 days. I feel even more depressed, lonely, anxious and no motivation for life at all. I don't know what to do with my life. I've read ton of self help books, mapped out some things i like in life, but when i feel i wanna do something i don't have any motivation or desire to do it. Everything seems so pointless and not worth of trying. Even moving out from my parents house and starting some business - Even though i saved a good amount of money already, but then i can't almost save no money if i move out(rents are very high) But because of the sacrifice and living below my means for alot of time to save up money i am afraid on spending it anywhere, because of the possibility of failure and bankruptcy. But i don't even know what to do with my life and i am not motivated to even start it, because i also carry the scars for not socialising and not having friends and i would like to have them. Me now: Dwelling in shame at my parents house Job that i hate Unmotivated Depressed No friends No girlfriend Feelings of worthlessness because i still live alone, with my parents house and i am almost 30. Finding myself often lying in bed in the middle of the day and staring at the ceiling unable to figure out solutions and sometimes suicidal thoughts. Not wanting to try anything new. Afraid to lose my little capital that i've collected to some pointless endeavour. Procrastination and no drive in life are the biggest problems in my life. Also me Very athletic and above average man physically. Some capital 5k Euros in my back. Fixed my teeth so i can smile to people again. 77 days of nofap and i never want to stop. Single No kids, no Financial liabilities. It could just be very long flatline because of PMO, or should i go to psychologist and get medications? I don't know what to do with my life and i am the master of procrastination. I'd really appreciate if you'd choose to share your thoughts and ideas or experiences in given topic. Best wishes to you all, Don't fall back to PMO - it destroys you from the inside.