I don't know what to do.

I used to think shit like this was for losers.. I had no problems with girls and until recently haven't had any "serious" erection problems. But I'm 110% sure that my problems with ED are related to my addiction to masturbation and that coincides with my OCD and depression. The less I jerk off, the better my overall mood and penis is. I broke down with depression and anxiety because I have OCD on top of all my problems. I've won awards in public speaking back in high school and used to hook up with girls all the time. Recently I've been messing up or getting anxious.. and now I have problems downstairs. I just wanna re-live the glory days. I'm a kid.. and I need some support. I'm seeing a therapist next week, I'm not sure if that'll help or not. Any advice for quitting/motivation will be encouraged. Thank you. I wanna get back to normal. I want my junk bigger and harder again, and I want my head bigger and harder again. Thank you.