I have no friends, I got my first job at 27 because no one wants to hire a homeless guy, and I'm about attractive as a crap stain on the wall. I don't see how its ever going to get better. Being homeless for 7 years fucked my life up. Going to community college seems like a waste of time. No one wants to be near or talk to the ugly guy. When you are constantly ostracized your whole life because you look like used diaper that has baked in the sun for several weeks, you know looks are practically everything. The dipshit that can't read above a second-grade level is loved by everyone because he is good looking. The moron can't do basic math has multiple girlfriends and a backups when he is no longer interested in them. They have a cellphones filled with numbers of friends and a list of women interested in them. Meanwhile, the guy that can actually write and understand shit beyond what is written is ignored and openly despised because he is the big, ugly, stupid ogre. I stare down a razor blade every morning, and I keep opening and closing a switch blade when I type. I think it would be for the best if I die. I wouldn't be missed anyways. I don't know how long this will last. My Pell grant is shaky. I had to lie to get it. I had to tell the people I was black. Telling them I was white made them deny me several times. I had to resort to lying to get out of that hell. I don't think I'll last much longer. NoFap seems to make it worse. At least with porn all the hell was held back.