I don't want to get married, I feel like there's no girl who will ever fully sexually satisfy me

Find a local porn star then hope it heps

 

Bro.. you need a reboot.. life is not all about just getting off.. this is just addiction that owns you.

 

I hope this puts your issue into perspective. Your addiction has reached a highly and internally destructive level. You only lust for the fake self created sex maid that you have developed in your fantasies over the years, you have fried the reward center in your brain that has made you feel as vacant and worthless as you do now. The damage you are doing to your psyche could potentially lead you to act in actual physically destructive ways. You must ask your self first,"what am I worth?". Of course, You are worth everything as a free and independent person. The rest is a matter of discipline. Do you really want to be the reclusive weirdo that hides from all the real people only to please your self to a fake self created sex maid which is physically dominating and humiliating you with her "thick legs"? Or do you want to live a life full of honor and glory in this world where you actually do something with your life and build a legacy? A legacy that lasts a whole age and is glorious. Its up to you. You know what you are worth, you know what you need to do. No one wants what you are saying that you want, you know you don't want to live like that. You are literally throwing away your greatest aspect, your manhood. I would say the same to a woman in your shoes as well. You have it in you Brother. Hail to you.