I feel as if I'm a pedo.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Moatasem, May 17, 2021.

  1. Moatasem

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    Static lol? It narrows down your focus on the moment, your emotional, mental, and physical state becomes calmed lad.
     
  2. we will all make it.
     
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  3. Moatasem

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    Hopefully, I just discovered that I'm going to fail most subjects this year thanks to my porn addiction, but we can do it lad <3!
     
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    Bro, assume responsibility be accountable for the decisions you have made in the past that led you where you are right now. If you kill yourself you are burying yourself in shit more than you already have on top of you. Take action. Practice Mudra, and sun gaze everyday. GO to a therapist RIGHT NOW
     
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    look man, maybe it's the child fault. Today they use make up and shit and you sometimes may be confused whether you look on 21 girl or 12
     
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  6. Moatasem

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    What a genius way to be jailed, I can't lad, especially in a country where talking about porn is taboo.
     
  7. What country are you from? I'm in the ME aswell. Unless you're like from Morocco or Algeria
     
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    Egypt.
     
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  9. as-salāmu alaykum brother I'm a Russian Christian from Israel.
    You'll get better if you accept your situation and wish to live. Have you heard of a manga called Berserk?
     
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  10. Moatasem

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    I know some manga, but haven't watched Berserk.
     
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  11. Silver36

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    I thought you had your suicide pre planned and shit
     
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  12. Moatasem

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    I have made several suicide attempts before, but I invariably give myself another chance.
     
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  13. Silver36

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    Sounds less like suicide and more like attention whoring
     
  14. IGY

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    That is not very helpful. Maybe educate yourself first on parasuicides...

    "Parasuicide refers to suicide attempts or gestures and self-harm where there is no result in death. It is a non-fatal act in which a person deliberately causes injury to him or herself or ingests any prescribed or generally recognised therapeutic dose in excess. The term was first coined in Edinburgh by Norman Kreitman It is considered to be a serious public health issue. Parasuicide is the strongest known indicator for a future successful suicide attempt. Other researchers also include those who attempt suicide with the intent to kill themselves in the definition of parasuicide. Studies have found that about half of those who complete suicide have a history of parasuicide. Parasuicide is most common in adolescents and young adults." What does parasuicide mean? (definitions.net)
     
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    Coming from someone who is a child themself, I don't think that you're a pedophile at all. Use this as motivation instead of something to bring you down. Make yourself realize that if you quit pmo'ing, you won't have to suffer the thoughts u have right now bro. And lemme say this, real pedos feel no remorse about their actions when they know that nobody saw it. It takes serious bravery, dedication and a person who is not a pedo to even come out with this issue and even feel terrible about it. If you were a real pedo you wouldn't feel bad about it. Don't worry buddy, stimulus can happen from literally everything. ( I once got hard looked at a Lambo) doesn't mean I'm sexually attracted to lambos.
     
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    You mean you popped a boner to a Lamborghini? :eek:
     
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  17. Silver36

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    You are not a child, you are a teen. He is attracted to pre pubescent girls or even boys. He is sexually aroused by watching young children
     
  18. Don't be a knob
    At times its a part of life when you consider suicide or lean towards it.
     
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    There's something called giving another "chance", and I'm not seeking attention from people or being exaggerative of my plights, I genuinely needed help, and the advice here was fruitful buddy.
     
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    Being a teenager is such a restive time of needless thought and irrascability with one's own frame of mind. It's painful, and it may even be of good acumen to take your own life away to relieve the pain that this life conveys (I say that sparingly); this is in a way repudiating the gift of god because it fosters a burgeoning evil that so many face with day to day. However, the frame of suicide isn't single-faceted, lad - it's not just rejecting life that you're doing, it's you rejecting the possibility of transcending the human condition. One day, you will get past your OCD. Reinforce that. Maybe it will be through medication, or finding a grand epiphany while running through the reveries you frequently delve into (as would be the case for me, who is both a teen and is diagnosed with ADHD), but one day you will ultimately understand the underpinning cause of all maladies and iniquities, and you will see that your task in life is to tame the beast within, such as your POCD (among other challenges life invidiously gifts you) that you are faced with on account of god's whim (yeah, that's right, his whim). Don't kill yourself, at least not until you figure out what it truly means to live.

    It is a shame that we, as men, are being emasculated and castigated unfairly because of our sexuality (mind you, most women don't understand the weight of these values, we are the ones who hold the seed, and have the ability to destroy our minds) and attempts to quell such pursuits with bawdry obscenities. But here's some perspective for you: [the following I ask of you to really consider every time you are dealt with an urge] notice how such obscene material abound, notice its accessibility to all men who seek it (not a penny need be spent, just fit for those dissipated and pauperized by the American consumer culture) and notice how - say for instance - a TV show with a more intricate and welcoming plot costs actual money (renting a movie, using streaming services), meaning it holds a value so esteemed that it is presented in the market, with its own market value! See, we're not just consuming material that consorts to our sexualities as men, but we're watching twisted, sordid content designed and fine-tuned to such a meticulous degree that is made for those who have absent meaning in their lives (same can be said for beer, spirits, cigars, and a surfeit of other things that are cheap or free to all Americans).

    From the past posts in this thread, you have come to the notion that you can grow; and once you realize the beauty of life, how expendable our sexuality towards women is in comparison to the love we are to have for Mother Earth (who carries all things sacred, profane, and of value), all that holds you back from self-actualization are these tenuous strands of habit. Of course, all you may need then is a modicum of discipline and effort to get the ball rolling, so say hello to better days and better grades for me once you make it fam. By the way, if you don't reach your goals, be true to yourself and establish and define as much rectitude as possible.

    Here, I adduce a statement from the great Paarthurnax: "What is better: to be born good or to overcome your evil nature through great effort?". Never capitulate to the monster within; and never forget your duty as a male primate with intellect: liberate yourself through dicipline.
     
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