I feel hopeless (Not hopeless anymore, i success)

I already started hardmode, i m on day 4 now. After a week i go again.
No femdom urges, not even once this 4 days.

 

I think i m in flatline, no urges nor femdom nor vanilla. I m on day 6 or 7 hardmode i lost count

 

Yesterday i did PMO to vanilla after 8 or 9 days of hardmode. I was having problem to mountain full erection at first but later it was fine. Maybe because i was in flatline. Today i did PMO to vanilla again and had better erections than yesterday.

 

I had femdom temptations today but i didn't fail in trap. I just repeat myself over and over again that i don't need it. To be honest sometimes i m little nervous will i ever be able to beat this. But i believe i will. I have problem with feeling arousal to vanilla, i can have erections sometimes even without touching but arousal is rare for me to happen.

How are you doing? All fine?

 

@Sirocdthe3rd I think everything is fine with you mate, just go easy and don't stress yourself, be patient and peaceful there is no time for despair, good to hear that you have a girlfriend!

Today i was able to PMO twice to vanilla, first time i just had a boner and second time was at evening i just wanted to try if i could do it again. I tried first with just MO(vanilla fantasies)
and i was able to get erections without porn and without touching but it was difficult but finished with porn.

 

I have watched femdom porn yesterday, after all this i made a greatest mistake again. Didn't PMO to it but i have failed.
I will go for vanilla today.

 

Relapsed to femdom again, i just can't hold myself, i will do 3 days nofap hardmode and go to vanilla again.

 

I am back on track guys

 

Hello friends i haven't visit thread almost 2 month.
I came back here to let you know that i m not given up. I relapsed several times during April and May which ended my almost 2 months femdom free period. But now i m back and now i m about two weeks femdom free, i don't know exactly right number because i don't really count days anymore, it doesn't matter to me, what matters to me is to be free.
I m having fine erections and sometimes even enjoy about vanilla.
How are you doing guys?

 

I relapsed once somewhere around 10th or 12th Jun and i m about two weeks+ free from femdom i will try my best not to waste my time and chance again, i m really serious this time, i always was but this time is different.

Whenever urge for femdom comes i always telling myself that is not what i deserve, that is wrong, that is not healthy, why i m doing all of this and expect femdom? I won't waste my time.

Hope you guys are doing well.

 

I still hold myself strong, i was having femdom urges but i didn't get caught.
I m almost four weeks free. Hope i forever be.

 

Sounds simple but that is only key. I m glad to see you again mate, how are you doing?