In the past three months I've made countless mistakes. I could not focus to save my life at the beginning of the fall semester and I'm paying the price right now. Finals are next week and I'm behind on my schoolwork and studying. I've had plenty of opportunities to turn myself around and I blew them all. I've failed to make any meaningful friendships the three months I've been in marching band. I still waste most of my time each day on non-productive activities despite the efforts I've made to stop that. I was so unfocused at the beginning of the semester that the chances of me passing my classes are slim (with the exception of programming and band). I'm typing this message during a break from studying. I have a long night ahead of me. My only real success in these past three months is nofap. I was PMO'ing quite a bit back in August but I stopped in September. This is my longest streak so far. I will hit day 90 on the last day of my finals, which is nice I guess. Nofap was the only thing keeping me from becoming a complete failure. Once the semester is over I will focus on becoming a new man. I applied for a job recently and I will follow up on my application this week. If I get the job, I will start training in a couple weeks. I will also learn how make money online and stick to a workout regiment. I will read and meditate as alternatives to mindless internet browsing, YouTube, and video games. If it wasn't for nofap, none of this would be possible. I may feel weak right now, but I won't give up. Despite all my failures, I've improved as a human being and I have the strength to move forward. This is the furthest I've ever gone and I'm not quitting anytime soon. I may not be a winner now, but I will be in the future. I don't know the exact date: all I know is that I will be a winner someday. Please give me the strength I need to push forward and I will win!