The path of a journey starts with the first few steps. If all you can muster is to stay free from it for an hour, then do that. Once you make it that hour, then go for another, then a day, etc. You'll start to feel a bit better the longer you go and your head will get clearer. Not saying it will be an easy path, but you can do it. Think of the reasons why you want to be PMO free and focus on those. At the beginning of this journey it will take a lot of white-knuckling to get through. Use techniques that work for you to pull you away from the urges; exercise, meditation/prayer, reading, podcasts, engaging in something creative like music or art, journaling. We are built for connection so the more you can move away from isolation and into connection with others, the better. Get together with friends or family and plan for the next time, the anticipation of that helps. Call or message a friend when you feel like you're slipping in the wrong direction. But the longer term way to address this is to try to understand what is beneath and behind the PMO behavior. You chose PMO as your solution; solution to what? Is it childhood things like abuse or trauma not dealt with, is it feeling insecure or not appreciated, or resentment, or loneliness, etc. Lots of potential reasons and if you can dig deep and address those, the higher likelihood you'll have success. And if you can summon up the vulnerability to share this, voice it out loud to a real live human being, a therapist, a highly trusted friend, etc., NoFap support group, 12 Step group like SAA or SA, there is so much power in voicing this and letting it out. Helps it to lose its power over you. But to me, the main point is that you can not do this alone. PMO is born in secrecy and isolation. You need to bring it out of the dark and into the light of honesty and connection. Best wishes.
