17yo Male here. Addicted to Porn for more than two year & half. But past 7-8 months, I've been trying to quit this habit after learning the negative consequences of Porn. I've tried almost every single thing. I workout almost everyday. Pray to God 3 times a day. Take cold shower. Sometimes write journals. But I keep falling behind. I'm actually starting to question whether it's actually possible for me. In the March, I got an accountibility partner, we both started together, helping each other to see the end of the tunnel. He is PMO-free for more than a month and here I'm relapsing in every 2-3 days. I know, there are plenty of guys out there on very high streaks. and I mustn't lose hope. But I just can't help but feel despair. I feel like I'm losing my mind. Feeling very ashamed of myself. I know that I can never forgive myself for being such a pathetic weakling, but I still keep going back. The dream of being the man I've always hoped for, it's fading away. I've had few 15-20 days streak over the last 7-8 months, but once I relapse, I go back doing it frequently like before. And I know that my addiction is only strengthening up as more time passes by and something must be done before it gets too late, but I always seem to fail. Will there be actually a day, when I will be able to say that I'm free, free from this filthy habit? Nowadays, Porn feels disgusting. But I still watch it anyway. I can't believe how much I've degenerated after starting PMO. I was always a cheerful guy, with good grades. I was free. I didn't have a single worry. But now I have to carry this burden. I know some people will say I'm acting a bit edgy. But I don't care. I just wanna free myself from this. It's like my own life is slipping in front of my eyes, and there's nothing I can do.