I feel like scum

teomio

Fapstronaut
I'm a porn addict, and Im a piece of shit.
I have a furry fetish thats It really drives me crazy, and I don't know why I like it so much.
I have fantasies with beastmans, and I really like lionmans, and muscles and all that stuff.

I haven't watched porn on purpose for months (I've seen it sometimes by "accident" since I had images in my gallery, but deep down I knew I wanted to see it)
and lately I've been seeing a lot of images of that type, but not porn, only showing very muscular, semi-naked beastmans
I haven't seeing genitals, but lately I've been so tempted to see it. I just can't stop watching it, I'm addicted to those kinds of fantasies and I feel like shit.
I feel so bad that I can't control myself, I thought I could because the previous months I didn't have that much desire, but these weeks I have been so close to seeing him. My desires start even when I'm in a video game and I see a muscular man (plus now many characters have very revealing clothes and tempt me more)
I dont play that game anymore, but lately I've seeing so much centaurs and images like that. I dont know what to do.
And the worst thing and what really makes me feel terrible is that I had an account in which I uploaded many furry porn images in which other people followed me. I haven't seen it and of course I haven't uploaded anything else, but the images are still there. Not only was I condemning myself but I was attracting others as well and I feel terribly bad. I can't even delete the account because I have many followers and I'm sad to lose the number. I'm a trash with no self-control and I've been making more people the same as me.

PD: I couldn't take it anymore and deactivated the account, although I have 30 days to return to it, I hope I have the strength to avoid that. I am very sorry, because it is because of sick people like me that many of you also have your problems. I'm really sorry
 
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I'm a porn addict, and Im a piece of shit.
I have a furry fetish thats It really drives me crazy, and I don't know why I like it so much.
I have fantasies with beastmans, and I really like lionmans, and muscles and all that stuff.

I haven't watched porn on purpose for months (I've seen it sometimes by "accident" since I had images in my gallery, but deep down I knew I wanted to see it)
and lately I've been seeing a lot of images of that type, but not porn, only showing very muscular, semi-naked beastmans
I haven't seeing genitals, but lately I've been so tempted to see it. I just can't stop watching it, I'm addicted to those kinds of fantasies and I feel like shit.
I feel so bad that I can't control myself, I thought I could because the previous months I didn't have that much desire, but these weeks I have been so close to seeing him. My desires start even when I'm in a video game and I see a muscular man (plus now many characters have very revealing clothes and tempt me more)
I dont play that game anymore, but lately I've seeing so much centaurs and images like that. I dont know what to do.
And the worst thing and what really makes me feel terrible is that I had an account in which I uploaded many furry porn images in which other people followed me. I haven't seen it and of course I haven't uploaded anything else, but the images are still there. Not only was I condemning myself but I was attracting others as well and I feel terribly bad. I can't even delete the account because I have many followers and I'm sad to lose the number. I'm a trash with no self-control and I've been making more people the same as me.

PD: I couldn't take it anymore and deactivated the account, although I have 30 days to return to it, I hope I have the strength to avoid that. I am very sorry, because it is because of sick people like me that many of you also have your problems. I'm really sorry

This is the place to look for resources to begin your journey of recovery. We all have our addiction faults. The most important thing now is where you go from here with recovery. Joining a local 12 step SA group and getting into some CSAT therapy would be an excellent start!
 
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