I feel rubbish :( (relapsed after 16 days)

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by SJ98, Jul 8, 2016.

  1. SJ98

    SJ98 New Fapstronaut

    Today I relapsed after 16 days and I feel like absolute garbage. I'm a Christian and I've repented so many times in the past and I thought this time I could really change :(

    I feel like I've failed God, my spirit wants to serve him but my desire hit me again, I'm especially disappointed because I started going out with this lovely Christian girl on the 26th of June... which now means I masturbated during the time we're going out :'(

    I really need to turn my life around and live for God, please pray for me :(
  2. Sometimes we fall so we can grow stronger.

    Surely you want to be faithful to her. Do whatever it takes to keep your heart sincere, being in a relationship can be a huge motivation.

    Not sure if you have seen these but watch them again if you have not,

  3. Shekhar95

    Shekhar95 Guest

    Keep trying. Such low spirit won't going to help you. I think we should not expect a radical change, it's sure one will stumble since it takes time to change the habitual mind. Next time consider it a victory if you could make it to 17 (while I believe you can make it to your goal) days. Each day we have to be better than what we were yesterday, if one fail at this, that is the real loss. Bro, we don't have time to regret, collect yourself and thrust forward.

    And for God, you can't fail him.
  4. VividKibitzer

    VividKibitzer Fapstronaut

    Keep going at man. Just know this, there are many Christians like you out their who don't care what God thinks of them masturbating and watching porn. The fact that you went on this forum, forced yourself to not masturbate for 16 DAYS is an accomplishment. Even if you failed this time, I believe God knows that you are trying to improve yourself into a better Christian :).
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  5. SJ98

    SJ98 New Fapstronaut

    Thank you my friend :) I literally fell down on my knees and begged for forgiveness, I feel slightly better but still a bit disappointed, but oh well I feel motivated now! thanks again :D
  6. Nom De Plume

    Nom De Plume Fapstronaut

    I know it sucks to relapse but you can't expect to make it without falling down along the way. We all have. Just get over it as best as you can and then get back on track. You can and will make it as long as you don't give up!
    Last edited: Jul 10, 2016
  7. 16 days is a long time to go. and as many times as a relapse, that's how many times I feel like garbage. if that bad feeling was not there, would we stop the addiction? that's what the garbage feeling is there for, to promt us to quit.
  8. pmarch12

    pmarch12 Fapstronaut

    You're not alone. I feel the same way about dealing with this while in a relationship. I have depended on porn and masturbation while by myself for so long, and being in a relationship appears to be a tough transition for my addiction. Good thing is, the more I realize how much I love her, the more I want to stop. But really at the end of the day I have to do it for myself.

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