I relapsed today after 9 days. I feel ashamed and disgusted by what i've done honestly.I even took off my cross necklace which i treasure when doing it because i felt so guilty but couldnt take it anymore.Why the hell is sin so tempting? it always leaves me broken and guilty. I feel so distant from God.I know He appreciates effort and i know ill always have a chance to try again but it always feels like an excuse to sin.Im feeling broken and unmotivated too, i worked out today after a long period of not doing it and i felt great.......before this. I just hate how porn has made me feel and what it has normalized honestly.
It is a small defeat, you can do this. I am praying for you that God will give you greater strength in times of trial. Keep pressing into God's word. I know from experience it is tough to much through those urges. If it is on your phone or computer before you go online, write on paper what it is you need to do online, set a timer for 5 minutes if your getting distracted from what you need to do walk away from it and come back to it later.
