What am I supposed to be doing man... I honestly feel like suicide is the only way out of this.
Porn has absolutely destroyed me man. I look at the posts here and I can't but feel like you guys have got the better end of the stick to be honest. I've been stuck in this PMO cycle since I was 12!! 12!!!
Porn is my entire sexuality. It's literally engrained into my very subcouncious. I've never experienced the loving touch of a woman ever. I'm 20 years old and I've never even held hands with a girl in my life. This is the level of sexual development I'm at right now. I'm totally fucked and I know it. Today, I glanced at a attractive woman on TV and started to suffer a literally panic attack. I went on auto pilot mode and went straight to my computer to relapse. My brain is fucked. I remember a couple of Years ago I was able to memorise alot of Information very easily but I can't string a sentence together now
I've been trying since I was 15! For the past 5 years, I haven't yet been able to hit over 30 days of no PMO. I always manage to slip up. For one reason or another, I always seem to unblock my porn blockers and relapse. Its got to the point where I can't even get an erection without porn. Im 20 years old and I have PIED! And I need to see some real hardcore porn to even become aroused in the first place. How am I meant to become intimate with my wife in the future?
Can someone who has atleast hit 30 days please advice me on what I'm doing wrong? The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result, and I'm honestly going insane right now. 5 fucking years and I can't seem to quit. I can't add another year to that
