Luvlyjubly
Fapstronaut
I’m posting this as more of a journal type thing, mainly just for my own reference to keep my sanity. But I’ve just binged hard, won’t go into details but I’m ashamed of myself. This addiction is the worst thing and I sometimes feel like it’s too powerful for me.
I’ve been attempting to practice NoFap now since I was around 17, 9 years ago and I have never made it to 90 days, in fact the furthest I’ve gotten is 36 days around 6 years ago. It’s pathetic I know but I just can’t seem to grasp this thing.
I’ve just relapsed after a 12 day streak, I was starting to feel great and confident, like myself but I’ve let it get the better of me once again.
Personally I’ve always struggled with addiction, whether it’s been cigarettes, booze, weed or PMO and I’ve finally conquered the rest, I just can’t seem to get rid of PMO.
It’s been one hell of a tough year for me and I know a lot of people have it worse than I do but damn it’s been hard. Moving jobs, losing my girlfriend and more recently the death of my mum. I know it’s not exactly relevant but it doesn’t make things easy when it comes to beating this thing.
Anyway, I’ve been here before saying blah blah blah now is the time I’m actually going to do it and all this rubbish but seriously, I feel like if I don’t stop now I’m never going to lead the life that I want to and be happy.
I’m waging war against this f*****g thing now, it must stop and I’m going to change up my style to beat it.
To everyone out there, there is a better life that awaits you outside of these chains, we can do it. Freedom is within reach.
I’ve been attempting to practice NoFap now since I was around 17, 9 years ago and I have never made it to 90 days, in fact the furthest I’ve gotten is 36 days around 6 years ago. It’s pathetic I know but I just can’t seem to grasp this thing.
I’ve just relapsed after a 12 day streak, I was starting to feel great and confident, like myself but I’ve let it get the better of me once again.
Personally I’ve always struggled with addiction, whether it’s been cigarettes, booze, weed or PMO and I’ve finally conquered the rest, I just can’t seem to get rid of PMO.
It’s been one hell of a tough year for me and I know a lot of people have it worse than I do but damn it’s been hard. Moving jobs, losing my girlfriend and more recently the death of my mum. I know it’s not exactly relevant but it doesn’t make things easy when it comes to beating this thing.
Anyway, I’ve been here before saying blah blah blah now is the time I’m actually going to do it and all this rubbish but seriously, I feel like if I don’t stop now I’m never going to lead the life that I want to and be happy.
I’m waging war against this f*****g thing now, it must stop and I’m going to change up my style to beat it.
To everyone out there, there is a better life that awaits you outside of these chains, we can do it. Freedom is within reach.