I finally realized that I am a man!

Never once in my whole life have I considered myself a man, I have always been more on the feminine side and it showed in my cross dressing as a young teenager and up until recently not to mention my sissy porn addiction. I have had more sexual encounters with men then woman and I was much harder every time with men, I think deep down I have always considered myself a female, my very nature is the opposite of what they say a man should be, but I just realized something, something that has been transforming in me the past couple days, I have become a man. It started with me out of no where finding perfect posture, I have always walked with a slump and my head down, I always lived as if defeated, it is taking some effort due to years of bad posture but I can maintain a straight back pretty well, and another thing is your eyes, I realized when depressed if you keep your head down you will continue to wallow in your self pity, but if you keep your eyes forward and your head up you will never be defeated!. I’m not 100% sure what sparked this change in me but I feel like I can do anything I put my mind to!, I will make this 3 weeks I am home count, I will regain my manhood and take control over my life!.