I HATE HYPERACTIVITY

out of a flatline i hate the hyperactivity of anxiety, i get feelings of confidence, happiness, interest but Its not a stable emotions, this sounds like bipolar but ive already established i dont have that, my hyperactivity is subtle and due to a lack of sleep, but since in a flatline u experience the opposite, dont most people experience what i am out of a flatline? these feelings of confidence are somewhat delusional until we reach humble confidence. day 100 here. I honestly dont want to feel so much confidence because it the increased sex drive is a distraction. Im passed the point of urges, i dont get them anymore but i get a high sex drive. I found out of flatline interesting experiences but never humbling. Anyone can respond but preferably people with 90 days or more and have generalized anxiety disorder(GAD).
Google is the worst, ive feared adhd, bipolar, autism, and these were only real when i would worry but it most likely i just have gad, social anxiety and mild depression. also my common sense tells me that given my anxiety, im afraid of happiness cuz i fear it will be anxiety based happiness and never humble peace of mind happiness. does anyone else fear that theyre happiness will be anxious happiness.. is it likely that someone with an anxiety disorder will experience anxious happiness for a while and need to get used to it in reference to the nofap journey.. I'm in this interesting phase were battling 2 and a half years of depression and anxiety through hard work, im transitioning into happiness, but these issues are stubborn and i would have never thought that part of the battle is getting used to happiness. this might only makes sense to some. i should just be patient tho because i was able to cope well with depressive anxiety, so im sure happy anxious is easier

 

Yeah, idk,,if I analyze everything that's happening during the reboot I'll go crazy, since I posted this I actually had a much less hyperactive confidence experience yesterday.. The past 3 nights I've had dreams which is a good sign.. But I can't categorize my reboot highs and lows according to the common nofap theme and I don't think anyone can.. I can't really distinguish between out of flatline or flatine even tho I said I can.. The past 100 days have been more emotionless, zombie like.. The main thing I've gained, is that while I don't have presentable confidence, the anxiety I get from social situations is like 0. But now that I don't have an anxiety distraction it's hard to go beyond that cuz I feel emotionless