I hate this

[guyfromtx]

I did it again, and this is a post about rebooting not relapsing.

Why was rebooting so easy at first then challenging after my first mess up?

I made it almost a month without PMO before relapsing for the first time, afterwards I find it a challenge to go a week without it. It's easier now to sink back into my old ways than it is to continue on the right path and I hate it so damn much.

Part of me wishes I could induce temporary impotence so I couldn't do it at all, but I know abstaining that way wouldn't be a matter of choice just like that episode of Lost where Locke takes Charlie's heroin.

I'm tired of people being nice and encouraging me, I need someone to be a dick to me. I think that's what I need to hear right now.

 

[Fallacious D]

Ok if you're relapsing so much then you're clearly not taking yourself seriously. Are you a joke to you?

 

[guyfromtx]

Ok if you're relapsing so much then you're clearly not taking yourself seriously. Are you a joke to you?

I guess to some extent I do see myself that way sometimes. Also I read that as a meme for some reason.

Also how do you get the "Spermies saved" attached to the counter?

 

[Fallacious D]

I guess to some extent I do see myself that way sometimes. Also I read that as a meme for some reason.

Also how do you get the "Spermies saved" attached to the counter?

That's my own thing I made that I have to update manually. Click on "signature" under the menu by your name at the top right, then you can add any text you want.