its LDR and she never seems happy with me. we tend to argue a lot. i trust shes loyal and she knows iam too but she also comes off as very immature at times and difficult to discuss feelings with (ha sounds like IM the woman, right?). ive gone through hoops of fire to be with her and make a future for ourselves and she says she appreciates but doesnt really truly understand what it means. at the same time, i truly believe i cant get any better than her. she has a low sexual partner count, isn't a degenerate, isn't corrupted by feminism or typical behaviors of modern western women yet we just dont get a long very well. lots of anger for both of us. even a few times we were together i felt a sense of loneliness...like there was a disconnect. all she ever wanted to do was sit in her bed and watch cartoons or movies. we never even cuddled after sex, she was always very keen and in a rush to go clean herself then back to watching things. ive even brought this up with her and she says she'll make good on that stuff but never does. my first gf was actually a complete slut but funnily enough i actually felt a sense closeness with her. maybe my gf is just really dumb? idk...i know that sounds terrible and makes me look like an asshole but i feel like shes not that bright...at least on an interpersonal level (am i using the right word?). she cannot seem to handle disagreements very well at all, she resorts to raging very quickly and it always ends up with me being the bad guy or the guilty sad jerk and having to apologize for "disturbing our peace". iam not very experienced in relationships so maybe some advice from older gents here could shed some light on the situation. i went on bit of a tangent...i just dont think i could do any better. iam told iam a good looking guy and i do get looks from girls very often but at the same time iam a pretty abnormal person (not a freak, i just deviate from whats considered normal in an obvious way). this will sound terrible but i think shes one of the very few girls on this planet that would accept someone like me. i have very mild pdd-nos (atypical autism) that i wad diagnosed with around 4 or 5 years old and i was diagnosed with a personality disorder at age 23. i feel like she uses the personality disorder diagnosis against me some times, as a way to shut down my feelings or view points...like anything i say negative must just be a form of delusional or paranoia..ive told her its invaliding but shes a bit immature and is quick to rage and if i try to meet her point of view with my own (force?).