I have absolutely no self-confidence in any sense. Every-day I feel like something is missing. An empty piece seems to be missing from my personality and that piece is where my confidence is meant to be, but it ran away and I am left on reserve power. I feel very light but weighted down, almost like a 1-ton feather. Even when I breathe I can feel a lack of strength, such a weak feeling, it’s weird but this is becoming pathetic. Hearing from somebody I know that ‘I am lacking in confidence very badly’ is nothing out of the ordinary as I know it is the truth, I'd hadn't realised I gave off such a weak character even though I have been told I do. When I watch a show or a movie and see a character acting strong, bold, and powerful I find myself acting as if that is what I am truly like on a day to day basis, until pushed into a corner and I revert back to my weak-self. I cannot look in the mirror without judging myself and finding flaws, I cannot walk down the street without questioning and wondering what people in cars are thinking about me, I cannot say anything in public without being concerned on if my voice is deep or high pitched, I cannot wear any clothes without thinking 'I need to lose weight'. or 'I need to gain weight'. Day after day the same questions emerge, answered by my insecurity. They say you should visualise the you-you want to be in your mind and try to be like them. Well I see him and I am struggling.