thanks guys. i hae only O'd 3 times in the past 15 days. i will not O any more. i do thik about sexuality way too much. it is perverting me. but i am also scared and nervous that i will never be cured. But i will keep going, i have no choice! i feel really bad today. no confidence, nothing, but could be anything. maybe i didnt sleep enough. thanks for the awesome comments guys. it makes me feel better.