I have no choice but my journey begins on 3 SEPT, 2014

Here i am with the stench of guiltiness in my body:never had a girl friend cause i have drained the karma and all the mojos that is needed to attract them through obsessive masturbation. i am the eldest son in my house but all my brothers and sisters are not giving the respect i really deserve because whenever they look into my eyes they see a person who does not has control of his life - who likes to be controlled by a person who does not have control of himself.

well i guess the reason why we don't avoid things even if when they cause us harm is because we don't have enough reason to let them go. for me here are some bunch of stuff that i want trade leaving this behavior.

1. I want have a girlfriend that i have ever dream of and i know after quitting this porn and masturbation is going to be of no problem

2. I want be the man i wanted to be socially, without feeling any guilty of inability to control myself.

3. I want to make more money with my business which fap keep sabotaging my focus and momentum in my business. It kills my business.

4. I want to look healthy and sexy without wasting it through unnecessary ejaculation.

5. Whenever i see women i freak-out and that has led me lost alot of chance and so much shame. I want to see woman as it is - they way Micheal Jackson feel when dancing with them and the way any responsible man feel when dealing with them.

6. I want to live a life without guilt between me and God, i knew He wants me to live a good life and would be angry if i didn't.

i will start a journey and i would either die or live until i finish quitting this shit out of my life.

if any person wish to follow or help me make some progress i would like to say i am ready and always grateful.

thanks till 03 September Wednessday 2014.

Sameer