I am 21 and I live with parents. In childhood I had a lot of friends but now iam does not have any. I had those friends who only knows about when to drink beer or other stuff, smoke a lot. But I am not smoking and drinking alcohol person. I like to draw and read books, do sports. I decided to don't talk to my old friends. I sometimes feel lonely. I don't have a gf, because I think girls don't give a shit about me. I am shy and bored of my life. Sometimes I think for what I live and I don't know. I haven't a main purpose of life. I live a mediocre life, I am not happy about it. I know that people may live worse than I. Much worse. But maybe I don't realize that my life is much better than other countries and regions. For example in Africa they does not have a clear water to drink or wash hands, and I have a lot of water. I have a lot of good things in my life but I don't care about it.