I have tried this before, but now I will try this for real.

Well, I am using my journal entry. It is as good as introduction for know.

Quick facts: Male, 26, Washington, D.C., Substitute Teacher.

Well, this has been a tough year. I had to go through so much. I thought I was stronger than porn, but I was wrong. I was so inconsistent with it and with that I have been inconsistent NoFap in my life. Here I am back to do it for real. No half assing it.

This year has been hell. I have been trying to get a full school time and suffered so many rejections. 7 no calls. Half sister killing herself. Supping my Mom full time. Dealing with a narcissistic ex. Not having enough money. A lot. Being to shy to go into the dating world. Being depressed. Wallowing in self-pity and failures. Wondering why the world forgot me. No moving forward. A cycle of self-defeated.

But there is a lot of good. I have made a lot of friends. I gotten better. I have been a much better teacher. My students love me. My Mom is not longer as sick as she was before. I have become much more sociable. And other good things that I am unaware of.

Porn was there just to numb me and make me no change as it always has done so before. Porn was the mask of the world I feared. It gave me nothing. Face a rejection or failure, masterbate. Again, it did me no good. I mistakenly thought porn was comfort. It wasn't/

Now I play to win. I had to block out any mention of the porn that I like. I had to install Block Site in Chrome with keywords blocked and in incognito mode.It will be the only way for me to move forward I will be stronger and do more.

I will/can be happy and successful, because I choose to be. I will be through. Again, no more half assing. I will succeed. Of course, I am afraid, but I can do it. I can do it.