I haven't really beaten PMO

All i have been doing is cultivating a personality, a mask you could say which i wear every day. I supress my urges, my sexual desires which have culminated and created a different person.

And i internally supres sthat person every day while pretending to b an asexual weirdo. Reality is that im neither, nor an animalistic porn addict nor an asexual enlightened person. Im somewhere between but these two sides are in contrast with each other so i choose every day to banish the weaker one.

in the meantime, i strengthen my asexual self to make it more dominant hping that it takes over completely and destroyes my perverted porn addicted me.

 

im in the same boat