I keep doing stupid shizzz, but I got a plan.

Haven't been on this site in a while. I'm at the point where I am doing dangerous stuff to myself, way out of character and this needs to end. I have made some positive gains recently. Lost 20 pounds and hopefully more. Starting to eat better, and feeling really good. Had a good convo with my brother recently about family drama stuff I always avoided. Hell, even got him in the gym. He is diabetic so he needs to start moving. But it's just this one scab I keep opening due to this addiction. So, I am going to find a counselor to work on this stuff and other issues I have avoided. I will NOT beat myself up for my porn addiction.