i keep relapsing

Hello, welcome to the forum! I understand the frustration and shame you may be feeling. We've all been there. I can only tell you my experience and it's been a long bumpy road. It hasn't been perfect that's for sure! I've tried going to 12 step programs which can be helpful. Lately I've been practicing meditation in the morning, and qigong shortly afterwards. I make it a point to not look at my phone right when I wake up, I go for the meditation first. I try to eliminate social media and random internet cruising. I try not to be on my phone before going to sleep and go to bed early. I'm not sure of your patterns, which is something you have to figure out for yourself. I've only learned this stuff from countless attempts and failures. I try to pray and give myself affirmations. Also see a therapist. The biggest thing is to never give up on yourself and keep trying and seeing what works and doesn't work. This is a very helpful community i hope you can find some tools here!

 

Your experience motivated me......