132 days in on this happy journey and all is good. Other than one bit of hand relief in the shower around day 95; I have been good, clear, clean, and wholesome. The other day I thought 'screw it I will PMO'. Went to a few old P sites and looked at a few things that would have once triggered me but got absolutely nothing out of it. The fakeness of the actors, the falseness of the sex. What once would have turned me on totally turned me off. But now I am thinking that I kind of miss pmo a little. I never ever want to go back to that dark place I once was in but it wasn't all bad.