I kind of miss having one off the wrist

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Ranvanp, Oct 23, 2019.

  1. Ranvanp

    Ranvanp Fapstronaut

    132 days in on this happy journey and all is good.
    Other than one bit of hand relief in the shower around day 95; I have been good, clear, clean, and wholesome.
    The other day I thought 'screw it I will PMO'.
    Went to a few old P sites and looked at a few things that would have once triggered me but got absolutely nothing out of it.
    The fakeness of the actors, the falseness of the sex.
    What once would have turned me on totally turned me off.

    But now I am thinking that I kind of miss pmo a little.
    I never ever want to go back to that dark place I once was in but it wasn't all bad.
  2. Clean Willy

    Clean Willy Fapstronaut

    Actually, it WAS that bad man. I also miss masturbating to porn, so I relate to your point. But to look back to it with rose-tinted specs is not a good idea. Stay clear!
  3. You_ll_succed_for_sure

    You_ll_succed_for_sure Fapstronaut

  4. Bluespace123

    Bluespace123 Fapstronaut

    Yes it was all bad! Otherwise you would have never come here, how bout go and reading some journals of men who are suffering greatly here and tell them its not all that bad.

    And of course you miss it, its instant gratification, but at too much of a cost. Porn gives instant pleasure followed by long waves of depression, the trade off is never worth it.
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  5. Davekransberg

    Davekransberg Fapstronaut

    I haven't reached your level where I get totally turned off by porn, but recently I've started to feel... Detached. Like, for a couple of minutes, I realized what I'm doing is wrong. Unfortunately, there is always another impulse that keeps me from closing the browser entirely.
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