I fap because I remain broken hearted. I lost the only woman I ever truly loved a long time ago. I've done so many stupid things to keep her memory alive that I find completely dishonorable. I tried courting her sister, her bestfriend,etc. I've tried to be with other women but as hard as I try I will always love that woman. No matter how hard I try if I'm ever in a close encounter with a woman. I'll say I'm sorry your not her. I need help can someone give me some advice?