I like being angry.

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  1. Infrasapiens

    Infrasapiens Fapstronaut

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    A spin-off of the I Hate saga.

    For some reason, when I get angry it feels good. Like, not good-good but like bad-good. My palms start to sweat a lot and I feel a rush of energy. I get a really painful throbbing headache but the split second it isn't throbbing it feels really good.

    I normally get like this when I see my neighbors doing whatever they want, bending the law and common decency as they please. I sometimes wonder how it would be to hit someone with a baseball bat, hard, mostly in the back.

    I think being angry is the only way I can get dopamine.

    "What is the point of this thread?"
    Well you see, it has been months since I've been angry, and I've noticed how good it made me feel, but the spark is gone. I can be disappointed or displeased but not angry like I used to.

    I don't like that being angry is my only way of feeling good. It is wrong.

    Anyone else has a similar situation?
     
  2. When I get angry, I definitely feel a large rush of energy. This stands out a ton compared to my usually sleepy self, so it is sort of exciting. For me, it is irritating though, especially when they are people i like. When it is someone I don’t like, I try to stop my anger even though I don’t feel too guilty, just because God is love and I want God.

    Do you find enjoyment in other things? E.g., video games-you play video games, right?
     
  3. Infrasapiens

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    Sleeping.
     
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  4. Kligor

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    Hi Infrasapiens buddy,i have similar experience.
    When i was everyday PMO user i was angry almost all the time,it was very easy to make me angry.When i was angry i feel like i m very powerful and that is what makes me confident when i was fapper.But now i m not angry anymore,its very rare for me to be angry,i m happy almost all the times,but sometimes i wannt to be angry again.
     
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  5. Infrasapiens

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    I'm not happy, and my streak keeps going up.

    Yes.
     
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  6. Dang. I thought you played video games? What other activities do you do (whether you enjoy them or not)? Also, did you get an internship yet?
     
  7. Fullyawake

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    Anger has a feeling of power and superiority. I get why people like it. I do. But at the same time, it means I’m not happy in that moment for whatever reason. Anger should be used as a motivation tool to fix a problem.
     
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  8. IGY

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    I do not think you are getting dopamine. What you are describing is adrenaline from the fight or flight response.
     
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  9. Infrasapiens

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    I do, but it is not the same anymore. It went from a fun activity to an anti-depressant. I go to college to waste my time and go to the internship place to do the stuff.

    I'm always not happy so at least being angry makes me feel something good.

    My dopamine receptor things are probably useless by now then.
     
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  10. magic05

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    Since I started nofap 4 weeks ago I'm so fucking angry, sometimes I could tear apart my entire flat.

    On one hand feel like I'm regaining my male power that I have suppressed for a decade. I feel alive. There are very few things that make me feel alive. Anger is is one of them. When my blood is boiling I know that I'm not dead. When I'm in the gym working out until my muscles collapse from the weight is the second one. PMO -used- to be the third one, but with a high price (after the orgasm I immediately felt like a corpse).

    On the other hand I'm scared of myself. I can't focus. I start to detest people and especially women in my daily environment. I'm restless. I don't know how to channel all this energy?
     
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  11. Infrasapiens

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    Actually you get used to it and it loses its short term effect. Just try to keep calmed until that happens, you don't want to say something out of anger to a person you love and push them away forever.
     
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  12. Tell us something that we don't already know about you... (In response to your topic!) o_O
    :rolleyes::D;)
     
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  13. Infrasapiens

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    I like dogs. I bet you didn't know that.
     
  14. Same here :emoji_yum:
     
  15. Nopes! I didn't. :) There's still hope for you then...
     
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  16. Jackb97

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    Who doesnt like a Alex Jones style rage?
     
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  17. Infrasapiens

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    What do you mean?
     
  18. I mean you wouldn't be completely consumed by your anger.
     
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  19. Yea man and there is a simple reason for it: you attached your self to this feeling of anger for many many years so you believe this is part of your identity. You feel good when you feel angry because your emotions align with your thoughts and, in appearance, confirm your identity. It gives you a false sense of self and existence.

    But that's also why it feels bad-good and not good-good. Your deeper self knows that the anger is actually painful and hurting your self. But because you are unconscious and controlled by your emotions, controlled by your false mind-made sense of self (that is the ego), you don't realize that it's hurting you.

    You are much less angry lately so it's great congratulationa. But it's also normal that you miss those angry bursts, because you (mistakenly) identify those angry bursts as a part of who you are.

    It's just like porn. If I listen to my mind, I miss it because it felt good. But my real self knows it's damaging and wrong.
     

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