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I like weird porn

Discussion in 'Compulsive Sexual Behavior' started by kiwi_fruit, Sep 27, 2018.

  1. kiwi_fruit

    kiwi_fruit Fapstronaut

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    I like weird porn like incest and bondage porn. All other types of porn have no effect on me. This is bad because I know it is wrong but I do not know what to do. I have started watching porn when I am 14. In the start I do not like this porn but now I do not know how to stop it. When I stop watching porn for some time, I wanted to see incest holly wood movies. I need your help.
     
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  2. When you are hooked on porn it will grow to more extreme things like this. After you have stopped using porn these feelings will start to go away.
     
  3. GeorgeJetson

    GeorgeJetson Fapstronaut

    Like you, I was into stuff I felt was weird too. I constantly sought out material that gave me the excitement I thought I needed. As time went on, I needed something more to do the job as the old stuff didn't excite me anymore. The constant chase for stuff more exciting ended up occupying most of my time. My life was wasting away. Today I'm sober 14 days and feeling brand new. I'm grateful for this community. You are in the right place.
     
  4. mirx88

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    I feel like it gets worse and it doesnt become satisfying always want more and moree:(
     
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  5. Dutchdad

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    Please reboot ASAP. I ended up with seriously illegal stuff and you don't want to go there I can assure you.
     
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  6. mirx88

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    Yea???? Really? I would happily do it hahaha.. my balls are about to explose lol .... u r saying my mind will think about weird stuff if i dont reboot? And can i watch porn?
    If that is really true, my balls thank u lol
     
    Last edited: Sep 30, 2018
  7. MasterRoshi

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    I know you’re struggle. Porn addiction can be progressive, starting with playboy magazine and advancing to hardcore video, then to taboo like incest, bdsm, underage, gay, beastiality, transgendered person etc...

    I thought I could never stop and thought I would never lose the PMO addiction or fetishes.

    But with lots of therapeutic work, it has gotten better, not gone but much better. For me this is a 2 year healing lrocess. I’ve found out there’s no magical pill cure. It takes lots of time and effort, unfortunate but true.

    Hang in there and do the hard work to overcome this! We’re here for you!

    What I do is
    • Daily meditation
    • Daily journaling
    • Daily exercise
    • Daily healthy eating
    • SAA meetings
    • SAA 12 step work with a sponsor
    • Lots of crying
    • Therapy CBT
    • And more.
    Notice most of what I do doesn’t have much to do with porn directly, cuz PMO is just a medication for me, notbthe actual problem. If I learn to live life without the need to escape with PMO, then I lose most of the craving.
     
  8. Contentful T

    Contentful T Fapstronaut

    Wow. Keep up the efforts. You seem to be applying yourself here MR!
     
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  9. Contentful T

    Contentful T Fapstronaut

    Can you elaborate? I think it is good to be detailed sometimes. If you are not comfortable, no need to.

    Was it child pornography? I mean what else is "seriously illegal"?
     
  10. Archangel 77

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    Have you done any other AA/12 step programs? I’m going to both ACOA, as well as AA, but I’m curious if there’s a difference for SAA. I makes sense that there would be since they are separate, but any specifics you can share are appreciated.
     
  11. Contentful T

    Contentful T Fapstronaut

    Kid most incense porn is staged. They are not actually family. Also I agree with Dutchdad. Some genres can land you in prison. Snuff and child porn for example.
     
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  12. Contentful T

    Contentful T Fapstronaut

    It's rehashed Bill Wilson material. There's nothing scientific about it yet being involved in a community and striving to improve and help others is where the benefits are derived from according to logic.
     
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  13. Contentful T

    Contentful T Fapstronaut

    Someone clean up the internet already.

    This kid is still a minor.
     
  14. Contentful T

    Contentful T Fapstronaut

    Ya. I got pretty extreme in terms of fapping to younger and younger girls. It wasn't porn but it was out of control and I don't consider myself a pedophile. I also fapped to grown women simultaneously. Horrible alcohol induced age fetish.
     
  15. Archangel 77

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    Cool, I figured as much. I’m going to stick to the two I have going for now. 3 is a bit much, even for me.
     
  16. MasterRoshi

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    I’ve done AA/NA for a long time for my drug addiction. But when I brought up my PMO addiction I would hear “your just a normal man, no problem...” while I appreciated their willingness to help, I don’t think hey understood my problem. To their credit, I also didn’t feel comfortable telling them the depth of my problem so it didn’t seem as bad to them as it was.

    SAA was a huge help because I walked in on day one and people knew exactly what I was talking about. I was able to do what the AA Big Book talks about “rigorous honesty” where before I would only be partially honest for a short period of time before I would keep things to myself yet again. This was very important for me.

    Working the 12 steps using the aa Big Book with an SAA sponsor was also really helpful. The Big Book talks about how a belief in a higher power is useless unless we do everything in our power to clean up the mess that we have between our ears. This was really important.

    I did everything possible these past 6 months to do exactly that. I have done several 4th steps before but always stopped short and only did what others told me to do. This time around I didn’t care what others ideas of “complete inventory” was. I went as deep as I needed to do, including writing down every single detail of my PMO history, so much detail that my sponsor was uncomfortable hearing it during my 5th step. So I utilized a nofap friend to disclose the rest of the details. I had to do this. But even all this wasn’t enough.

    The Big Book talks about seeking outside help as apart recovery. It says this in multiple spots. Most 12 step programs have developed a narrow minded approach and forget about this piece of recovery. So I started seeing a therapist weekly working in CBT techniques. I was suicidal while sober cuz if my guilt and shame around my taboo PMO history. My therapist helped me through this and when I was as honest as I could be with her, (which was insanely honest), it broke that depression and I haven’t been suicidal in 4 months.

    My main focus now is on my anxiety, self hatred and insecurity. This approachcto recovery takes me away from 12 step at times because it’s not about a magic-pill solution, and 12 step isn’t the answer. But what is the answer is what the 12 steps talk about and that is rigorous honesty. As long as I’m remaining 100% honest about myself and my recovery, getting over social anxiety and getting a career job for the first time ever and overcoming my anxiety and self hatred surrounding work, IS recovery.

    I hope this helps explain how 12 step is working for me. Because everything I do is recovery based even if it has nothing to do with recovery directly. Make sense?
     
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  17. Dutchdad

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    It was indeed but I'm too embarrassed to speak openly about it...
     
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  18. Dutchdad

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    I fapped to nearly everything but I am diagnosed with hebephilia. I could still PMO to other stuff but my condition expresses itself differently (never ever touched a minor) . It's 2 different things
     

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