Hello everyone, I have a bad habit that fortunately does not get me in trouble, but makes me feel like a piece of shit. I go college so it is woman galore over here, especially at the gym which I try to go to everyday. The habit occurs when I see an attractive girl who I would enjoy hooking up with. But this happens all the time. In class, at the store, watching television, and I hate it. It makes me lose focus. Recently I have been subconsciously telling myself that I should not think like that or even be tempted to look at women like that. The reason that I think this is a bad habit is because I currently suffer from what I believe is PIED, and this habit is a way of me affirming that I find these women attractive. But the truth is, I believe that porn has desensitized a lot more than just the feeling of sex. It has desensitized the way I can look at women and consequently makes me doubt a lot more. For example, I am in no way a homosexual (There is nothing wrong with it if you are) but my older brother is. When I first started experiencing PIED I was so confused and worried that I might have turned homosexual. This made me look up things like "is homosexuality genetic", thinking completely absurd thoughts that made me fear that I was a homosexual. Also, nothing homosexual ever aroused me at any point which should have been enough for me to forget these thoughts, but it did not. I know how ridiculous it sounds, but it is a problem. More so some months ago, I can now dismiss those thoughts, but they still seem to surface in times of anxiety. (Again there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a homosexual, my brother is an I love him.) Anyone else experience this?