Hey guys I started abstaining from PMO 9 days ago. I experienced wet dreams on my 6&7th day and on the eighth day I really tried hard, like real HARD not to masturbate after I watched porn. I also went jogging every morning since I started abstaining. Today the same scenario happened as yesterday night when I'm alone that I started watching porn and then the urge was too difficult to control. And thus I master bated today. I know I typically start watching porn at night when I sleep in my underwear and when I'm all alone. EVEN THOUGHT I KNOW that this leads to masturbating, I just can't help it and I think to myself that I will be able to control myself which is actually a lie. Guys I need advice as to what I can do to control my urges ONCE AND FOR ALL. Please don't tell me to remain busy as much as possible or to do push ups when you feel you're about to give in to the urge. What I need is REAL DETERMINATION, REASONS AND MOTIVATIONS TO STOP MASTURBATING ONCE AND FOR ALL!! I feel so depressed after I masturbate. I also feel the world is spinning around me.Thanks guys, :'( looking forward to your help so that I can stop it once and for all.