Like the title says, I lost my virginity to a prostitute. I had been thinking about it for a long time and after frequenting a forum dedicated to escorts/prostitutes for some time, I finally decided to message an independent girl. I live in a country where prostitution is not illegal. I want to say that I did not enjoy the experience at all and felt awful the whole time about what I was doing. I was unable to gain an erection or orgasm. The girl was very nice and made me stay over the time payed to talk to me and calm me down. She told me that I wasn't doing anything wrong and that nobody had forced her etc etc. After this encounter I felt somewhat empty and somewhat depressed. I became distant from my friends, so much so that they messaged me asking what was up and if everything was ok. After admitting to one of my friends of what I had done, he had the completely opposite reaction of what I expected him to have. Instead of being disappointed in me and calling me a low life, he congratulated me and seemed really proud for the decision I had made. I actually felt happy afterwards and relieved but deep down I still felt absolutely horrible. I am a very heavy masturbater and porn consumer. During my day (I am a student living at home) I can easily masturbate to orgasm upwards of 8 times, to the point where I feel absolutely exhausted. I've been doing this almost religiously 10 years. I don't want to do this anymore. After not being able to gain an erection with a very attractive woman, I became a bit scared. It was also the first time I had touched or seen a woman naked (in person) and I felt nothing. No excitement or arousal whatsoever. I knew it had to do with my habits and I want to stop. Losing my virginity happened some time ago and I don't feel so bad anymore about doing it with and escort anymore. I have read a lot and seen many documentaries and interviews of sex workers and I feel that morally, it wasn't a bad decision. I will most likely do it again in the future. I only felt bad because of the concept of sex I was raised with. What I really feel bad about is the amount of porn I watch and the times I masturbate. I have become extremely desensitized to sex and am scared that it could hurt future relationships that I will have. Thank you for reading. I just wanted to get this off my chest. Cheers.