Sondae
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Ever since I could remember I was bullied for being obese.
At my highest, I weighed 230 pounds at 16 years old. Keep in mind, this is with almost no muscle mass. I was eating fast food every other day of the week. I had a massive gut, tight fitting clothes, and yes... the dreaded man boobs. It was awful. I hated myself.
Fast forward to COVID, I decided things needed to change. I saw a golden opportunity with all of the free time on my hands. I hit the walking track every single day and started a diet. By the time I went back to school, I weighted 170 pounds. I had lost 60. I felt like a new man. I felt more confident than I ever had. It was a success story. People constantly asked how I did it. They wanted to know the secret. The fat jokes stopped, I started attracting more girls, I began wearing clothes I never would have put on.
Now, I have gained back 15 pounds and abandoned my diet. I went from working out at least 5 days a week to not exercising at all. Something happened. Perhaps school? Depression? My addiction? I feel my success slowly slipping away from me. I crave food like I never have before. I felt like I was more attractive than I ever had been in the months leading up to this change. Now, I feel as if I can only go downhill. I'm stumped. I don't know how to get back on my feet.
I've always wondered if having a girlfriend is what caused it. Perhaps I don't feel the need to keep up my appearance as much since I don't need to attract anyone? This weight gain coincides with a neglect of my hygiene and a spike in depression. Of course, it can be so many other factors including starting my job.
I'm not sure what I am looking for in posting this. Maybe I just wanted an outlet to share my story. Maybe I need advice. I'm not sure. Whatever you can offer is just fine.
To all of those who are actively on a weight loss program, remember that you can change yourself in ways you never imagined... but you can throw it all away just like that.
At my highest, I weighed 230 pounds at 16 years old. Keep in mind, this is with almost no muscle mass. I was eating fast food every other day of the week. I had a massive gut, tight fitting clothes, and yes... the dreaded man boobs. It was awful. I hated myself.
Fast forward to COVID, I decided things needed to change. I saw a golden opportunity with all of the free time on my hands. I hit the walking track every single day and started a diet. By the time I went back to school, I weighted 170 pounds. I had lost 60. I felt like a new man. I felt more confident than I ever had. It was a success story. People constantly asked how I did it. They wanted to know the secret. The fat jokes stopped, I started attracting more girls, I began wearing clothes I never would have put on.
Now, I have gained back 15 pounds and abandoned my diet. I went from working out at least 5 days a week to not exercising at all. Something happened. Perhaps school? Depression? My addiction? I feel my success slowly slipping away from me. I crave food like I never have before. I felt like I was more attractive than I ever had been in the months leading up to this change. Now, I feel as if I can only go downhill. I'm stumped. I don't know how to get back on my feet.
I've always wondered if having a girlfriend is what caused it. Perhaps I don't feel the need to keep up my appearance as much since I don't need to attract anyone? This weight gain coincides with a neglect of my hygiene and a spike in depression. Of course, it can be so many other factors including starting my job.
I'm not sure what I am looking for in posting this. Maybe I just wanted an outlet to share my story. Maybe I need advice. I'm not sure. Whatever you can offer is just fine.
To all of those who are actively on a weight loss program, remember that you can change yourself in ways you never imagined... but you can throw it all away just like that.
