I`ve been taking class of Christianity where i do learned basic stuff like types of bibles, Rabbais, types of Angels, concept of resurrection and forgiveness. with that being said, I`ve somehow got ended up watching disturbing clippings, scenes from movies such as Passionate of Christ. some scene according to Johns writing. Okay let me clarify on things that making me feel pathetic. whipping or Christ is walking around holding a beam are`nt that scary or chilling. in a scene taken according to writings of John, were one soldier feeding Christ with beer soaked in a sponge. finally, after death of Christ poke him in his chest to exclude some remaining blood. Those scenes are really disturbing. I know I`ve been watched many disturbing movies in my life. I didn`t got affected much. but now I`m following retention over watching any movies or entertainment content with negative notions to train my mind for healthy response. So it affected me watching quite graphically disturbing content after long time. So, please let me know if there`s any way to get rid of those disturbing scenes of execution of Jesus Christ. NOTE: I`m not either a follower or relate with Christian background. but I got to love him naturally right after reading his journey, journey toward his missionaries, his extreme level of humility and forgiveness. I really love JESUS alot!, I would like to know many things more of Jesus rather about Christianity. so please suggest any ebooks about Jesus (I`m expecting it to be simple!, not an expert level).